Confession...
Posted at 09:55 PM

hey

I have to admit... all these new people really intimidate me >__<"

I really don't like... you know... having to be all nice, friendly and out there with people I don't even know... it's just... very very not me :| I don't know how else to explain it but... *sighs and attempts*:

I'm not a very friendly person. That's a fact. I hate change and once I have a small, settled circle of friends (i.e., like I do now...) I really don't feel as if I need anyone else, thus I'm usually not that nice to anyone else. Hell, I'm just not nice full stop. My friends know that and accept it, which is why I can be as open as I want around them without being afraid I'll offend them because they know it's in my nature. Thing with new people though, is that they have to get to know me, in my fake "I can actually stand humans" phase and then I have to slowly leak out my real self and they either slowly get used to it or get offended and decide they hate me.

But then, I don't think that I can really say all that is true 100% of the time, because otherwise, I wouldn't have found friends in Hong and Krystal

*sigh* I miss them both so much, it's rather depressing... v_v oh well! I'll see them on Saturday! Which is good XD *can't wait 'til Saturday*

Plus, I'll be playing tennis on Saturday again! I love tennis... ^^ It's so nice of my dad to teach me ^^ and he's also asking if he can get me coaching! ^^ The owner of the courts said she'll train me on Thursdays from 6-6:30 but it's too inconvenient and thus we have to ask for another time ^^;

Well, good night!! *randomly glomps computer*

Random Quote: I type for the sake of hearing me type

~ Kii-chan
Currently Reading: Jane Eyre; by Charlotte Bronte with the horizontal : over the e
Currently Listening To: Imaginary; by Evanescence
Mood: mood-less

SOLVED IT!! *dances* ^^
Posted at 02:58 PM

Yay!!

Mr Chung gave us this brain teaser in SDD that Microsoft gives to all its prospective employees and told us to figure it out. Microsoft expects the people to solve it in 5 minutes >__< Well, Sam (being Sam) finished it in class, though I don't think he did it under 5 minutes, and I think Omar did too... (AND STUART DIDN'T!! ) and Mr Chung told us to do it for homework by Wednesday AND I JUST SOLVED IT!! XD

*is so proud of herself* yaay!! ^__^

*ahem* yes... well....

We went to Aniprick's house yesterday, 'cos Shriya had her official naming ceremony today (don't ask... I don't follow Indian traditions, nor do I care to) and all our group of family friends were invited (and believe me, that's a LOT) I saw Vijju for the first time in... ages. He lost weight, rofl. That was like, the first thing I said to Soumya as soon as he walked in the door and we both cracked up. I feel kinda sorry for him, we're so bitchy XD

Well, I hung around with Soumya, Prashant, Siddanth, Vijju and Vikas. Lasya originally wanted to tag along behind me, but I managed to ditch her and sit with people my age XP

We were all paying out Vijju 'cos he liked the O.C. I can't completely remember everything we talked about, but everyone was paying out anime and I was left on my lil old own to defend it!! ;____; and all Prashant defended was his freaking Naruto <_< *sigh* I hate it how all the anime that's shown on tv is pretty shallow and thus, most people get the idea that ALL anime is as superficial!! I'm glad I've seen Lain and Haibane Renmei ^^ They rock *nods*

Well, after we ate dinner, we ate ice cream and sat around talking. We were talking about school subjects etc. and Siddanth got pretty bored. I think he actually asked his mum if they could go home!! *laughs head off* Sorry... I just don't like him that much... <_<

Vijju left a while after that and Vikas started asking me questions like "what's the chemical symbol of carbon?" etc... it was funny because every time I got it right, he was like "how do you know that?! " and I always felt so smart XD hehe. We went upstairs away from the adults cos it was so overwhelmingly... mature o_o

Thing is, when we went upstairs, that's where all the lil shits were... XP they followed us from room to room and it was so irritating!! Finally, we managed to get into a room and shut the door. Prashant sat against the door so they couldn't open it XD

For some reason, the topic of conversation turned to Michael Jackson (well, 'cos Vikas likes/d him) and then to the whole pedophilia thing, and then to just public wrong-ness... and... twas rather odd. Can't remember what we talked about then... =/ lol...

ah well, umm.... yes...... then time passed and we went home without much happening...

lol, except Lasya told me that she felt guilty about trying to set up Shirisha with Aniprick what, 3 years ago. That was also rather amusing because that was soo long ago and it still bugged her she needs to have a faulty conscience like Raven. Good ol' Raven

~ Koume

Random Quote: It's hard to run away from something you want.
Currently Reading: Jane Eyre by some Bronte or the other
Currently Listening To: Anthem pt II; by Blink 182
Mood: proud/meh...

SICK OF IT!
Posted at 03:54 PM

What the hell are people trying to do to me?! ARE THEY WAITING FOR ME TO CLOSE MYSELF OFF THE REST OF THE FREAKING WORLD BECAUSE I CAN'T TRUST ANYONE?!? I'm SICK of it! I feel betrayed, put down and just plain STUPID when I get lied to! Why? BECAUSE I GET LIED TO BY THE PEOPLE I ONCE CONSIDERED MY BEST FRIENDS!!!

Okay, I'll calm down and explain what happened:

Swatee left. It's not THAT which I'm upset over. I just don't like the fact that she... I don't know, but I believe she has a superiority complex. Or at least, she wants to be surperior. She has this thing about her that she likes letting us know that she's hiding something and wouldn't tell us what it was if we asked.

See... yesterday she was acting a bit strange... she came running to us, made us let her take pictures and then went away, without explaining anything, even though we asked her what's wrong and if she was leaving. She wouldn't say anything.... and then when i asked if she was leaving un Physics, she said no! The bitch lied through her freaking teeth!

argh, i can't be bothered writing more.
Currently Reading: nothing
Currently Listening To: Thank you; by w-inds.
Mood: ^(@&%(!!!!

1st day back. Where are Hong and Krys? Oh yeah... -_-
Posted at 07:11 PM

hey.....

you know... i feel so weird without two of my best friends. It's so weird, you know? It's like i've had a few chunks cut out of my soul. I'll never find two people like them ever again. It's a good thought, but at the same time, depressing. I'm not looking for replacements for them, but I want someone who i can be open with, be myself, truly. No pretenses that I’m better or smarter than I really am… just… me. how Hong and Krys know me. it’s gonna be so weird not having a partner in crime anymore… I hope I don’t become more docile or something o_O that’s the last thing I need at the moment. Well… there’s still Zara, but after the whole Jin thing, I’m not sure how much I can trust her again, you know? I’ve definitely forgiven her, that’s for sure… but I have a feeling I’m gonna have to think twice before truly opening myself up to her. It’s like that for everyone, really. Everyone but Hong and Krystal. We were all on the same wavelength. We could understand each other and I don’t know anyone else at school I can do that with.

That aside, I feel like a stranger in my group myself. it’s so different since last year. Seriously, we’ve taken a bunch of new girls, dumped them in our group and it’s as if all the memories of before just flew out of the window. Well, they did occaisonally miss Hong and Krystal, but I think perhaps I’m the one who misses them the most. Perhaps Zara does too and she hasn’t told me, like how I haven’t told anyone but Hong, but… I dunno… am I just holding on too tight to the past? I don’t want to close myself off to the world, I just need Hong and Krystal :’(

Well… at least we’ll still meet and tuition… that’s a good thing at least


Oh, and Zara gave me a letter and a present today =/ I have no idea why… I think I should ask tomorrow… =/ but yeah… she gave me a pair of gold 12 carat studs made of yellow, white and rose gold. I hope it wasn’t expensive!! I’d feel so bad if it was!

Well, s’all for now.
Cya

~ Kii

PS: Yes! that’s my new nick name, given to me by Hong ^^
Currently Reading: nothing
Currently Listening To: nothing
Mood: empty

SAFIN WON!! ^____^
Posted at 07:49 AM

He did it!! Marat Safin won the Australian Open!!

I watched it last night!! I started watching at the start of the 2nd set (because I'm always too scared to watch the first set... ^^ and it was really bad, because Hewitt won that set 6-1 but then when I started watching, Safin was doing good!!

Aaah, I'm so happy!! I was supporting Safin so much that I even made a deal/promise with my dad that if he won the Australian Open, I would start playing tennis and he won!! So I start playing tennis this Saturday, hopefully



Anyways, this is my last day of holidays, so I'm gonna go off and have fun!

cya! ^^

~ Koume
Currently Reading: *wants Silverthorn*
Currently Listening To: Dedicated To You; by w-inds.
Mood: happy

AAAaaaaAAA!!! >___
Posted at 05:40 PM

Man I don't like this whole ads-on-tabulas thing... <_< oh well, not like I can do much about it. I'll hopefully get it outta my freaking way SOON! ^^

well, anyhoo. we went to Lasya's house today. came back a few minutes ago ^^ she's getting gradually more fun to be around (thank gods... i had a bad feeling that we were drifting apart!!) and yeah... we were looking around the net for cool wallpapers. we found a few pretty good ones

damn it!! my ripway images are screwing up on Kilame and I can't get into my photobucket a/c for Kilame either!! I think I forgot the password... but i'm pretty sure I knew it.... .___.

damn it this is so annoying, I'm glad I have the day off tomorrow before school resumes... I'm gonna need to give Kilame's images a full makeover!! >__<

well, cya for now!

~ Koume
Currently Reading: *needs Silverthorn*
Currently Listening To: Shiki; by w-inds.
Mood: annoyed