1st day back. Where are Hong and Krys? Oh yeah... -_-
Posted at 07:11 PM

hey.....

you know... i feel so weird without two of my best friends. It's so weird, you know? It's like i've had a few chunks cut out of my soul. I'll never find two people like them ever again. It's a good thought, but at the same time, depressing. I'm not looking for replacements for them, but I want someone who i can be open with, be myself, truly. No pretenses that I’m better or smarter than I really am… just… me. how Hong and Krys know me. it’s gonna be so weird not having a partner in crime anymore… I hope I don’t become more docile or something o_O that’s the last thing I need at the moment. Well… there’s still Zara, but after the whole Jin thing, I’m not sure how much I can trust her again, you know? I’ve definitely forgiven her, that’s for sure… but I have a feeling I’m gonna have to think twice before truly opening myself up to her. It’s like that for everyone, really. Everyone but Hong and Krystal. We were all on the same wavelength. We could understand each other and I don’t know anyone else at school I can do that with.

That aside, I feel like a stranger in my group myself. it’s so different since last year. Seriously, we’ve taken a bunch of new girls, dumped them in our group and it’s as if all the memories of before just flew out of the window. Well, they did occaisonally miss Hong and Krystal, but I think perhaps I’m the one who misses them the most. Perhaps Zara does too and she hasn’t told me, like how I haven’t told anyone but Hong, but… I dunno… am I just holding on too tight to the past? I don’t want to close myself off to the world, I just need Hong and Krystal :’(

Well… at least we’ll still meet and tuition… that’s a good thing at least


Oh, and Zara gave me a letter and a present today =/ I have no idea why… I think I should ask tomorrow… =/ but yeah… she gave me a pair of gold 12 carat studs made of yellow, white and rose gold. I hope it wasn’t expensive!! I’d feel so bad if it was!

Well, s’all for now.
Cya

~ Kii

PS: Yes! that’s my new nick name, given to me by Hong ^^
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SICK OF IT!
Posted at 03:54 PM

What the hell are people trying to do to me?! ARE THEY WAITING FOR ME TO CLOSE MYSELF OFF THE REST OF THE FREAKING WORLD BECAUSE I CAN'T TRUST ANYONE?!? I'm SICK of it! I feel betrayed, put down and just plain STUPID when I get lied to! Why? BECAUSE I GET LIED TO BY THE PEOPLE I ONCE CONSIDERED MY BEST FRIENDS!!!

Okay, I'll calm down and explain what happened:

Swatee left. It's not THAT which I'm upset over. I just don't like the fact that she... I don't know, but I believe she has a superiority complex. Or at least, she wants to be surperior. She has this thing about her that she likes letting us know that she's hiding something and wouldn't tell us what it was if we asked.

See... yesterday she was acting a bit strange... she came running to us, made us let her take pictures and then went away, without explaining anything, even though we asked her what's wrong and if she was leaving. She wouldn't say anything.... and then when i asked if she was leaving un Physics, she said no! The bitch lied through her freaking teeth!

argh, i can't be bothered writing more.
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SOLVED IT!! *dances* ^^
Posted at 02:58 PM

Yay!!

Mr Chung gave us this brain teaser in SDD that Microsoft gives to all its prospective employees and told us to figure it out. Microsoft expects the people to solve it in 5 minutes >__< Well, Sam (being Sam) finished it in class, though I don't think he did it under 5 minutes, and I think Omar did too... (AND STUART DIDN'T!! ) and Mr Chung told us to do it for homework by Wednesday AND I JUST SOLVED IT!! XD

*is so proud of herself* yaay!! ^__^

*ahem* yes... well....

We went to Aniprick's house yesterday, 'cos Shriya had her official naming ceremony today (don't ask... I don't follow Indian traditions, nor do I care to) and all our group of family friends were invited (and believe me, that's a LOT) I saw Vijju for the first time in... ages. He lost weight, rofl. That was like, the first thing I said to Soumya as soon as he walked in the door and we both cracked up. I feel kinda sorry for him, we're so bitchy XD

Well, I hung around with Soumya, Prashant, Siddanth, Vijju and Vikas. Lasya originally wanted to tag along behind me, but I managed to ditch her and sit with people my age XP

We were all paying out Vijju 'cos he liked the O.C. I can't completely remember everything we talked about, but everyone was paying out anime and I was left on my lil old own to defend it!! ;____; and all Prashant defended was his freaking Naruto <_< *sigh* I hate it how all the anime that's shown on tv is pretty shallow and thus, most people get the idea that ALL anime is as superficial!! I'm glad I've seen Lain and Haibane Renmei ^^ They rock *nods*

Well, after we ate dinner, we ate ice cream and sat around talking. We were talking about school subjects etc. and Siddanth got pretty bored. I think he actually asked his mum if they could go home!! *laughs head off* Sorry... I just don't like him that much... <_<

Vijju left a while after that and Vikas started asking me questions like "what's the chemical symbol of carbon?" etc... it was funny because every time I got it right, he was like "how do you know that?! " and I always felt so smart XD hehe. We went upstairs away from the adults cos it was so overwhelmingly... mature o_o

Thing is, when we went upstairs, that's where all the lil shits were... XP they followed us from room to room and it was so irritating!! Finally, we managed to get into a room and shut the door. Prashant sat against the door so they couldn't open it XD

For some reason, the topic of conversation turned to Michael Jackson (well, 'cos Vikas likes/d him) and then to the whole pedophilia thing, and then to just public wrong-ness... and... twas rather odd. Can't remember what we talked about then... =/ lol...

ah well, umm.... yes...... then time passed and we went home without much happening...

lol, except Lasya told me that she felt guilty about trying to set up Shirisha with Aniprick what, 3 years ago. That was also rather amusing because that was soo long ago and it still bugged her she needs to have a faulty conscience like Raven. Good ol' Raven

~ Koume

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Confession...
Posted at 09:55 PM

hey

I have to admit... all these new people really intimidate me >__<"

I really don't like... you know... having to be all nice, friendly and out there with people I don't even know... it's just... very very not me :| I don't know how else to explain it but... *sighs and attempts*:

I'm not a very friendly person. That's a fact. I hate change and once I have a small, settled circle of friends (i.e., like I do now...) I really don't feel as if I need anyone else, thus I'm usually not that nice to anyone else. Hell, I'm just not nice full stop. My friends know that and accept it, which is why I can be as open as I want around them without being afraid I'll offend them because they know it's in my nature. Thing with new people though, is that they have to get to know me, in my fake "I can actually stand humans" phase and then I have to slowly leak out my real self and they either slowly get used to it or get offended and decide they hate me.

But then, I don't think that I can really say all that is true 100% of the time, because otherwise, I wouldn't have found friends in Hong and Krystal

*sigh* I miss them both so much, it's rather depressing... v_v oh well! I'll see them on Saturday! Which is good XD *can't wait 'til Saturday*

Plus, I'll be playing tennis on Saturday again! I love tennis... ^^ It's so nice of my dad to teach me ^^ and he's also asking if he can get me coaching! ^^ The owner of the courts said she'll train me on Thursdays from 6-6:30 but it's too inconvenient and thus we have to ask for another time ^^;

Well, good night!! *randomly glomps computer*

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~ Kii-chan
Currently Reading: Jane Eyre; by Charlotte Bronte with the horizontal : over the e
Currently Listening To: Imaginary; by Evanescence
Mood: mood-less

Swimming Carnival = BLUDGE!! ^^
Posted at 01:12 PM

oy!

Swimming carnival is on today and seeing I can't swim even if my life depended on it, mum let me stay at home ^^

Only thing is... it's rather boring without someone to talk to -_- well, I was talking to Rhett before and Madhuri just came on... okay, she just went off o_O, but... I wish I could talk to Hong or Krystal (preferably both XD)

*sigh* ah well, can't have everything, ne? I'll just need to find something to do. I've already finished my school work AND tuition work so now I'm free for the rest of the day ^^

Maybe I'll start working on my new blog layout... If I can even decide what to use XP well, I just wanna make it look really different to what it looks like now. Shouldn't be too hard, ne? I mean, for someone as totally random as me, coming up with new things isn't too hard... but I've gotta know HOW to do/code it too XP But I'm pretty sure I'll figure something out... you'll see... *taps nose*

cya for now

~ Kii-chan.
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Augh, it buuurns!! It buuurns!!
Posted at 10:27 PM

I never realised how hard it was to come up with an ****amazing new layout!!**** -_-

This is exactly why I don't usually draw out my layout on paper before I start making it!! >_< I mean, yeah... if it was screwing up and I was confused, THEN i'd draw it out, but noo, I had to be all **proper** this time and plan it out on PAPER first!! Well, that paper can kiss my ass because it DOESN'T WORK!

*nods* i'll make it work eventually. that is right. It will work. AND THEN I'LL HAVE A NEW LAYOUT!! mwahahahaha!!

yes......

-_-

I go.

~ Kii
Currently Reading: Jane Eyre (well, meant to be..)
Currently Listening To: My Last Breath; by Evanescence
Mood: determined

GOT SILVERTHORN!! :-D
Posted at 11:51 PM

Yay!! I finally got Silverthorn!!

you know what that means....?

I HAVE TO FINISH READING JANE EYRE!! .___."

oh well, it's a good thing i've read it in year 8 already I suppose all I need to do is skim it, I've already read my old summary of each chapter and I bet we'll be going over it again in class together after everyone's "read it"

*is feeling restless and is looking at her copy of Silverthorn and wants to read even though it's 12:25am and should be getting to sleep sometime soon and won't put book down for at least an hour after i start reading XP*

ok, my eyes are getting lazy so I should go to sleep soon. SUNDAY IS MY SLEEP-IN DAY!!

but before I go... time to do what I'm supposed to do in a blog!

RANT ABOUT TODAY!!

gah, today was such a... not-great day!! Saturday's arent supposed to be like that!! <_<

well, at least I got to see Hong and Krystal!! ^__^ *so happy about this whole seeing them every Saturday thing* ^^ it's good to see them again... and again and again every week ^^ hehe

well... after I got home from tuition, we ate lunch and me & dad went out to the shopping centre to buy me extra books I needed, spent like an entire HOUR in Dymocks :| came out with a bag that seriously weighed > 2kg of text books (AND SILVERTHORN!! ^_^) but the drive home was hot and... well... in a car... and those two things are very effective in getting me to sleep so I crashed on the sofa as soon as we got home. Dad sat next to me and started reading something from a text book or something and i was like "...i want SLEEP!!" so every time he paused i just said "mm" and he stopped reading and I think he fell asleep too, lol. Well, I woke up, made a random noise at my mum who was cooking, got no response, tried to get back to sleep, noticed dad had stolen my pillow (yes there's a pillow on the sofa ^^) so I went to my room to sleep, only thing was... mere seconds later, mum came and told me to wake up!! <_<

Well, then we played tennis so it was all good :D

beh, i gtg

cya

~ Kii-chan
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I was going to talk about something but I've now forgotten!! XP
Posted at 09:12 PM

Yes... as the title suggests, I had something I was going to talk about in my blog, but now I have FORGOTTEN what it was!! GAH! v__v so I guess I'll be going on and on about trying to remember it until I actually remember it XP

Hmm... let me go through everything that happened today..

Ah, yes! Quite a few exciting things happened today, so I shall talk about my entire day ^^

Okay, to start of with..... RAQELLE'S BACK FROM EURPOE!!

Yes, we hugged/ran into each other this morning. She looks soo strange in a yellow shirt. I'm used to a white shirt that brings out her pale complexion and goth-ness, but... yellow just doesn't match a goth... =/ but, she's gone cross-crazy! XD She has cross earrings, nose ring AND a huge mad-ass chunky cross!! XD She's always been going on about how much she wanted a chunky cross since she saw that chick in the Nymphetamine (by Cradle of Filth) video clip wearing one. Well, I've never seen the clip, nor heard the song, so I have no idea what the cross in question looks like, but... ehh, Qell's happy with it, and it cost 9 Euros, I think... (I have no idea what its equivalent is in Aus $ XD)

She got me a teddy bear dressed up as a royal guard with the massive hat-things!! XD *knows nothing about England/Britain/whatever its name is!! XP*

It was so cute!! XD

Umm... okay, after that... I handed in my note to host a Japanese exchange student coming over. Ms Stuart then told me to go to the staffroom at lunch time to get the next round of papers. I did so, and yeah... I had to fill in a profile and need to hand in a note tomorrow saying we're all responsible people at my house and we'll take care of the Japanese student, etc. I saw the profiles for the people coming. They're all girls and some of them look familiar ^^ I think... her name migt be Ayami or something... (yes I am very bad with names XP) is coming over. She was one of Airi's friends There's a girl named Chihiro who likes dogs and listening to music, so perhaps I'll host her. There's another who likes J-Pop... but I can't remember her name XP well... I'll be happy with whoever I get

And... uhh... I think that's it, actually ^^; It's those two things I wanted to talk about. So the talking is done. I shall go now ^^; and find tutorials on how to make abstract art!! I am bent on getting this right!! *marches off with her hand in the air*

~ Kii-chan.
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Mood: randomly apathetic =/

Ya ^^
Posted at 09:30 PM

hahaha, i sound like that Postman in LoZ:MM

anyways, I have quite a bit to talk about (mainly owing to the fact that I haven't written for 10+ days... -_-)

Well anyways... let me talk about the Japanese Exchange Students!! ^_^

Dunno if I mentioned last entry, but they're all girls Some of them are familiar from last year when I went over, such as Ayano ^^; I'm hosting someone I saw as familiar from last year too. Her name is Minako (i think!) otherwise known as "the brazillian one" She was nice, so yes, she shall be good to host, I think ^^

I can't wait until they come!! ^_^ It's gonna be so cool struggling to talk Japanese again!! I dunno why, but it was so much fun now that I look back on it in Japan XD

Anyways..... I also finished Silverthorn ^^ Took me five days- less than half the time it took me to finish Magician Now I want A Darkness at Sethathon!!! Good thing tomorrow's a Saturday I need a new bookmark too... my school bag ate my old one >.<

And finally... (yes, I realise that three things to talk about isn't that much, but hey... my life is a small and slow one... -_-)

I'm sick of Zara. Not 'getting sick of Zara', but I'm there. WHAM. I'm sick of her. (don't ask why I put 'WHAM' there... lol...)

She's really pushing me off the edge now... the way she makes it clear that the only reason she's being so nice is to make sure that you don't stop being her friend because she's a lying bitch. Now... I don't know if this is intentional or not on her part, but I see right through her and I've really had enough. In a pretty twisted way, I really cannot wait for Monday.

~ Kii
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